December 30th was a warm windy day. 2016 and the finish line with one more stride to step into the last day of the year.
I was experiencing a pause in the continuation of time and I was wandering into a new realm of existence,one far beyond the everyday reflection mode. I took a breath and stepped back to honor the new physical reality in which I now live, one far different from a year ago today.
Emotionally, I have analyzed the whys and wherefores of the events of this past year and honor the truth of my conclusions and the healing of the trips to get away and explore other aspects of my existence which are valuable to me.
Mentally, I honor my grieving heart and never cease to be amazed at my resilience in letting go of any attachments to what should be or I could have done differently. Slowly, I let go of the nagging rehash of events which would really prefer to become habitual should I allow them to continue.
I can not change the way life is right now. In fact, I am grateful. If it took all of the onslaught of this past year for me to be able to be meandering through this realm where all of life's experiences are a gift, then I wouldn't change a thing about it. (I know! Marilyn Monroe said it first!!)
I know I came into this incarnation with a sacred contract and have been about collecting the shards of my broken life, as life IS broken for us all after all is said and done. Right speech and action, I am learning, is more than determining and communicating the true facts, the scientific analysis, the acceptance of outcomes beyond stoic resignation, or the attempts to mend estrangements.
In this realm, which I choose to call Higher Self, Divine Energy holds me, us, in a different mode of responding to human suffering - our own and that which is present everywhere in today's world.
Entering a new way to live, I took time on the 30th to print out, read, and wad up into balls ready to burn, an 82 page document which for me represented all the negative attacks on my character and on the character of all people in this world this past year. This destructive energy has been available all year for anyone to buy into. Many did. Many did not.
I took the wads of paper to our newly purchased lot next door, to the center of the lot. I also took a candle to call in the Buddha Energy always readily available, too. I lit the candle and set it into a place dug out to hold it erect. Then I lit the wads, one by one, from the candle and monitored their burning until the whole document was nothing but white ashes.
I placed my finger in the ashes The ashes that clung to my finger, I placed on my third eye just as a priest does on Ash Wednesday.
Then I picked up the candle and carried it home. To my amazement, it stayed lit allthe whole way home - about 100 ft. in real time.
I know this year will be a time of energy spent on visioning the new realities this world needs - which I need, and no energy spent worrying about what negative energies have and will continue to produce.
Can you perceive what I am saying about changing a way of responding? The great revolutions of the 60s required awakening a sleeping world to""he times which were a changin'.
Today, because the world is available through the massive media explosion of the 20th Century atechnological revolution, I do not believe we are living in a changing world that needs awakening to. Being alive is perpetual change in and of itself. Everything has really really really changed. Just as a baby cries when encountering the new reality which is not the womb anymore, people are crying out in protest to having awakened to this strange world with no skills to function here.
I will gather Buddha, mindfully focused on a vision for this reality, one which isa birthing insight to provide direction into the future.
Where and how will your energy be focused in2017? How will you be sustained in holding a new vision for your life and for the new patterns that must emerge in social systems everywhere?
