Balancing Thoughts and Feelings

"Your heart has been sending you in the right direction, but now it's time for you to let your gray matter weigh in on the current situation. It's not that emotions aren't important elements in your life -- they are. But right now, you need to think more logically than emotionally. Make a list of pros and cons, research all of your options, and give yourself plenty of time to make the right move. If you go from your gut exclusively, you could end up making a mistake."

I had been sitting in meditation for a couple of hours. The CD music had long been over. I was listening for an insight, and answer to the question, "What is taking all my energy to resist, keeping me in a tired state all the time? 

So,  I blessed the spaciousness I had the privilege of sharing with the oneness of all creation and went on about my day.

Later, when I had left that meditation space completely, I read the quote above. 

Unable to let it pass unconsciously, I read it again - and again - and then again. 

this was the answer to my question.

Well, not the answer, but the space into which I was drawn to find the answer.

So, I got the CD playing again, relaxed, and placed myself directly between my thought body and my emotional body -imaginally speaking. 

On the one hand, my thoughts had a word or two to say about the options I had for a direction I might choose.

On the other hand, my feelings offered options for emotions which would be accompanying the various choices available.

I held each in a hand of their own for a few long moments, sensing the balance which was coming into this inner space where I was sitting.

I felt a bit uncomfortable at first and anxious about the possibility of no resolve.  

When I was able to let that go, I also was able to let go of having to receive an answer.

I took a deep breath, opened my eyes, and my decision was clear.

My gut was going in the right direction, but I needed to be more strategic about how I went about following through with my plan.

Holding thinking and feeling in balance is always a winning model.

 Ideas are not in charge. 

Emotions are not in charge. 

I am in charge.

Who is this "I" who is in charge?

It is I who has made a decision.

When I make a free decision, I live without resistance.

It is then, that I am not tired all the time.

I am energized.

"So, why has this taken so many years to learn?," I ask myself.

The answer: This is a natural process, operating when I have been energized,  of which I am now aware.

What decisions are looming in your life - especially the one which you are resisting?